Xuanji was frozen in plac when he yelled at her. She remembered what the lover’s curse was, and the mask that was half crying and half laughing. It’s just… “Isn’t the mask broken? The Lover’s Curse was lifted,w asn’t it?” She turned her back, like a child who had done something wrong, and asked in a panic.
Liu Yihuan’s face was sullen, he grabbed her sleeve, and dragged her back a few steps before saying, “It doesn’t matter if the mask is broken, it has nothing to do with the lover’s curse! This thing is very venomous, and will jump out when he feels uneasy, like a stubborn illness. At this time, you had better not go there, so he doesn’t die in your hands!”
Xuanji was so shocked that she lost her breath, “How could I kill him!”
Liu Yihuan tightened his lips and said nothing. He didn’t want to blame the little girl too much, she was under too much pressure..
The Deputy Palace Master smiled gently, “You didn’t kill him with a sword, you killed him with your heart.”
“You are talking nonsense!” Xuanji was not so polite to him, her face seemed to be covered in a layer of frost.
The Deputy Palace Master said, “How can I say nonsense? Do you know what it means to be in love with each other? You know that the Lover’s Curse will only happen when you are concerned about gains and losses? Who is the person who makes him worry about gains and losses? It’s you, right? If you don’t love him, why don’t you let him go? It’s not him who is entangled, it’s you.”
“I… I didn’t!” Xuanji was so anxious that she almost cried, “Why would I not like him?! I really like Sifeng!” She couldn’t hold herself back anymore and spit out her heart in front of a several big men.
The Deputy Palace Master whispered, “Little Xuanji, like and love are two completely different things. You can like a lot of people, parents, sisters, teachers, brothers…You can like a lot of people, but being in love is different. In this world, You will only love one person.”
Xuanji opened her mouth to refute, but found that she couldn’t find any words to refute.
Liu Yihuan once asked her like this, in her heart, what is Yu Sifeng, and who is the most important compared to the people she likes. She never understood the meaning of this question, everyone is important, and she didn’t want to lose either one.
But now, she vaguely understood.
Yu Sifeng said that there is only one person who will make you willing to die for them. Compared with that person, nothing is important, life and death are shared, that’s it. You will be sad for many, many people, and even have the thought of dying with them too, but only one person will let you go with him without hesitation. Just because that person is more important than your own life, losing them, the whole world is equal to death.
So, is Yu Sifeng such an important person in her heart? She thought for a long time, covered in cold sweat over her thinking, but couldn’t think of an answer. She has never really lost him. She has such a despicable thought in her heart: He will stay with her anyway, and he will never leave. As long as he is there, she will never be alone.
She hadn’t thought about what she would become if he really left. The reason is that she believed that Yu Sifeng would never leave. She relied on his love and was reckless.
She will be sad when Mother and Father are gone. Linglong and Minyan left, she will be miserable. But, it doesn’t matter, she still has Sifeng, he is the deepest line she hides, and there is no possibility of leaving. She buried this idea so deeply that she even hid it from herself.
She went to Li’ze Palace desperately to snatch him. She didn’t know how much of it was because of loving him. He was so close to her, hugging, kissing, how sincere she was at that time, she didn’t know.
She is so selfish, everything is for herself, she doesn’t want to be alone, she is afraid of being alone. When she was a child, she was punished in Mingxia Cave, as if she was the only one left in the whole world – a feeling she never wants to experience again. Yu Sifeng’s gentleness was the only life-saving straw she grasped, and she would not let go even when she died.
Is that love?
Would that be love? !
Xuanji’s face was pale, she was stunned on the spot, and her mind was in turmoil.
The Deputy Palace Master said softly, “In fact, you don’t love him, so don’t torture him. Let go early, it will be good for you and him.”
“I…I…” Xuanji murmured, suddenly feeling extremely aggrieved, tears slowly streaming down her eyes.
Yu Sifeng’s voice suddenly rang. He was calling her, his voice was faint, “Xuanji… is it Xuanji?”
Xuanji cried bitterly, covered her face, nodded, choked up and said, “It’s me… Sifeng, are you okay?”
Yu Sifeng leaned in the arms of the Grand Palace Master, without any strength. His face was pale, looking fixedly at an unknown place in the distance for a long time, before saying softly, “I’m sorry, I haven’t told you the truth. It must have scared you.”
Xuanji whispered, “No… I’m just a little surprised… Si Feng, I didn’t let go on purpose… Don’t be angry with me.”
Yu Sifeng slowly shook his head: “I’m not angry… By the way, your father and the others are not injured, right?”
“No. They are fine… Sifeng, will you go back with us? I will definitely find a way to solve that lover’s curse. Don’t worry.”
Yu Sifeng was silent for a while, then suddenly said, “Fuyu Island is in such chaos, how did you run out? What should you do in case of an accident?”
Xuanji said anxiously: “I’m here to chase you… Don’t change the subject! Sifeng! Even if you are a demon, it’s not a big deal! I don’t care at all! Come back with us! If Father and the others care about this, then we will leave! The world is a big place, we can go anywhere! I really don’t care at all!”
Yu Sifeng glanced back at her, and that look was as light as water, and Xuanji couldn’t help taking a step back when he looked at her like that. He whispered, “So what if we leave? Live without everyone forever? Live like this forever? In this way, you will not be alone, right?”
Xuanji seemed to be hit by a thunderbolt in the clear sky, her face turned pale immediately, and she trembled, “You… why do you… say this…”
Yu Sifeng closed his eyes and took a deep breath. In fact, he woke up very early, and he heard the conversation between the Deputy Palace Master and Xuanji very clearly. It was because he heard clearly that he had expected that Xuanji would never say that she loved him. In fact, he understood her answer very early, but he just didn’t want to think about it.
He knows Xuanji too well, she doesn’t understand love, she is like a child who is afraid of loneliness, pulling everyone to accompany her, so that she can feel at ease. He has been lying to her and himself, and now he can’t lie anymore.
“Xuanji, I’m leaving.” He said lightly, “I’m tired and can’t play children’s games with you anymore. From now on, you are on your own. Take care of yourself and don’t let me worry about you, understand? ”
Xuanji was trembling all over, her knees were shaking so soft that she couldn’t support her body. She said sadly, “You lied to me! You said that we would always be together! You lied to me!”
Yu Sifeng said softly: “I lied to you, I can’t hold on anymore. Xuanji, its time for you to grow up.”
Xuanji stared at him in a daze, suddenly smiled blankly, and muttered, “You are lying to me… Sifeng, you won’t leave.”
Yu Sifeng shook his head: “No, I will leave.”
“You lied! You told me…you said…” He said that she was the only one in his eyes, and he also said that even if she regretted, he would not leave. Those, are they all lies?
Yu Sifeng said solemnly: “I have said a lot, but I can’t do it anymore. Xuanji, I love you, and will always love you in the future. But I don’t want to be with you anymore.”
The Grand Palace Master was ecstatic, and trembled: “Good boy! Good boy! Well said! Let’s go back to Li’ze Palace with Master! Over time, you will forget all this!”
Yu Sifeng let out a tired breath and whispered: “Master…this disciple has caused you a lot of trouble…”
The Grand Palace Master couldn’t help the tears in his eyes, “No trouble… as long as you come back… I am really happy in my heart!”
He turned around and left without looking back. The Deputy Palace Master looked at Xuanji for a while and then walked away slowly. Xuanji suddenly shouted: “Sifeng! Please! Don’t go! Don’t… Don’t leave me!”
He didn’t seem to hear, he stopped looking at her. The Grand Palace Master soared up and quickly turned into a small black spot, which was no longer visible. The Deputy Palace Master stood in the air, looking down at Xuanji, seemingly pitying, and after a while, he only whispered, “You are still young. In the future, when you understand… it might be…”
He suddenly shook his head, sighed, and flew away.
Xuanji stared at the empty sky blankly, staggering after a few steps, and her heart was also like an empty sky, completely hollowed out.
“You lie…you lying villain…” she murmured, and a stream of tears slid down her white face, all the way to her neck. She walked slowly without blinking, as if she had lost her soul.
Liu Yihuan couldn’t bear it, he went up to help her, and said softly, “Little Xuanji, are you okay? Hey… why both of them are so brain-dead and make people worry…”
Xuanji turned her head in despair, looked at him in a daze, and whispered, “Brother Liu, he lied to me…he’s gone.”
Liu Yihuan said softly, “He just isn’t thinking right now and will be back soon.”
Xuanji whispered, “No, I know… he can’t stand me anymore, he will never come back.”
Seeing her like this, Liu Yihuan felt a little horrified in his heart, patted her on the shoulder, and said softly, “How about Brother Liu accompany you to snatch him?”
Xuanji shook her head and said softly: “He made up his mind this time, I can’t get him back… He made up his mind and abandoned me…”
Speaking of abandoning, her heart suddenly hurt, her eyes turned black, and she couldn’t support it anymore and fell forward.
Lazy Cat Translations 
ah. these last few chapters really hurt my heart.
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I pitied Yu Sifeng in the drama the most and I kinda hate Xuanji there because she doesn’t trust him completely and she always hurt him but in the novel, I feel bad on her specifically in this chapter she is always an outcast and she loves him but she just don’t how to express it unlike in the drama I can’t feel that he really loved him not until she discovered the lover’s curse. Lastly, Sifeng suffered a lot in the drama and it is good knowing that he doesn’t experienced it here all the time. All in all, both the drama and the novel are good. Thank you for translating. 🖤
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